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Age: 18 School: Republic poly Birthday: 301191 New media.Selatra.Cinta.Stares at people with uneven kenings:).. Looking back September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 La-La-Links Say it. |
Tuesday, December 15, 2009 Dudy texted me out of the blue. &i'm doing just fine Dudy. I AM DOING FINE. Dudy: Heyy.How are u?Wanted to knw hw ur dng..Was spring cleaning my rm..Den i saw a box wif ur letters in it..I really miss you.I dunno wat went wrong between us..I was being a selfish jerk..And im truly sorry!Hope ur dng fine..Miss u much.. My reply: Aku okay.Thanks tanye. And for the letters,cast it aside.That was so long ago. And i'm sorry. Dudy: Okay then..I gt what you mean..No worries! My reply: I'll put up a blog entry about you later.I miss you too.I'll explain everything in my blog.Hope things between you and mus(HIS BESTEST FRIEND) are fine.I'm backing out of this friendship.Thanks for the happy times baby.I love you. Dudy: Dont say you love me when you're leaving me..And you're not welcomed 4 those happy times..If you're gonna leave,FINE! Go ahead. Delete my number, delete my recordings..Delete everything about me! Don't bother writing abt me in your post coz i'm not going to read.. I dun hate you. I just hate the fact that you're leaving me.. If this is wat you want,Then this is what you'll get. Don't bother replying. Don't bother wastin your time on me. You've got a life,go live it. This is my last msg.. And i promise i'll never look you up again. And you better stay happy. Dun ever look back on the past..Im sorry that you have to leave me.. Bye. My reply: Ok.Take care.That's what you want. You get what you want. Ok. Get this thing straight in your head dudy. WHO WAS THE ONE WHO INITIATED THE BREAK UP? It was YOU.YOU.YOU. The reason why i wanted to settle that thing on that day is to clear my name. I'm not entirely to blame for this fucking thing. And you. You readily offered me the 'END OF FRIENDSHIP' on my fucking birthday. Now,i'm granting you your wish... It is the END. Who do you think i am? Just a 'spare' friend? When we have misunderstanding, GOODBYE FRIENDSHIP!! When we settled it, WELCOME BACK ATIQAH!! BE MY FRIEND AGAIN!! I can't be bothered. It's the end? So be it. I'll do FINE without you. Like how i've been doing these few days. Be BEST FRIENDS FOR LIFE with Mus okay? And. I'm backing out. Not because i hate you. I want you to be happy with your GREATEST friend. Who is obviously of a higher rank in your friendship list than me. & i do not. I repeat. Labels: Coz i dont care. Eh. I can't fall ASLEEP:( I walked in front. Trying to stop myself from turning back to look at you. But the harder i try. The more i want to look back. Seeing you hurts me. But i was stubborn. I kept wanting to turn back to look at you one last time. Until i realised it was all in vain. I hurt myself trying to be happy. I hurt myself trying to make you notice. Why do i even bother? Will the hurt be here forever? I tried to forget. I forced myself to. But the more i try to forget. The stronger it gets. The more i force myself. The more painful it gets. AtiQahCinta. I want to be in school with my friends now. Where i can laugh until tears start forming in my eyes. E35E rocks aite. Home. Home. Home. Fine. Fine. Fine. Monday, December 14, 2009 AtiQah. AtiQah. AtiQah. You like him don't you? You think you're funny Don't you? Sunday, December 13, 2009 Just this once. |